heat lightning ⚡️🌑
depleted and at peace.
FLASH.1
Son, we are complex creatures in our makeup…but we are very simple in function.
I am laying on the sidewalk in front of the house. 10:00p. The Side Walk is still Warm from the heat wave. Rain drops on my face and shirtless body. H E A T L I G H T E N I N G. My grandmother liked to tell us that the angels were bowling. no thunder. God’s puppet show. In this moment, this is all I need. I have painted today. Design for a school. Writing and problem solving. Wrestled with the kids class. Drank Modelo. Skated.
In that order.
FLASH.2
Today was the 6th day on THE WALL. Cleaning up letters today. People have been ridiculously positive.
Stopping with cold liquids. Yelling. Texting. Honking. In terms of what I would like to do with my life professionally, I would be totally okay with doing this as often as possible. Thankful for the people that made it happen. Everyone is so happy. I was telling N. that I can tell it is something im naturally geared for because my head is clear when I wake up, and when I run out the door. Less nonsense. I am in flow. 100 degrees. A puddle of sweat.
What is happiness?
A yes, a no, a straight line, a goal. - Nietzsche.
At the end of the day DEPLETED. And at peace.
Simple Creatures, we are.
FLASH.3
I’m back on the ground. The thing we always have with us. Ground below. God above.
Good conversation with N at the gym. Everyone training hard. N leading the war-ready into ADCC in Vegas. A trail run in the heat to end practice. I told I.— that I have all the faith in the world in him. Our gym is different, that is apparent. Maybe more than we thought. Morpheus what’s he doing? He’s Starting to believe. H in the other room listening to a chant. That girl is strong. I wish everyone could see what I see. No doubt some do. She shines bright like the flashes. Enough to burn down a mountain. The Book A recommended (actually, demanded that I read, lol) it reminds me of my wife.
Heather sees the hidden beauty.
You attract what you are, they say.